Thanks for the comment and reference.

I don't care if I"m cheated because, from my point of view, it is impossible for a BIPOC person to cheat a white person. It's all Reparations.

I care about the sleazy feeling I was getting, because I know God loves a cheerful giver. And I care about the fact that she needed the money to see her mother one last time, yet it was getting dangerous out there and I needed that money to save my own life.

I was raised Catholic, on a steady diet of tales of Holy Fools who had been martyred for their piety. I grew up with the idea that everyone has to die sooner or later and martyrdom was the best way to go. But when the opportunity for martyrdom came, I chickened out.

This was far from the first time I"ve been easy pickings, but it was the first time it got to the point that I was in actual danger. And the way things are going, it could happen again.

I'll get Rambam's Ladder and read it. Maybe it will help clear things up.