James Baldwin wrote that racism is rooted in white self hate, and if white people could learn to love ourselves then racism would be over because it would no longer be needed. And I know that self-hate is a poor motivation for allyship. But when I read stuff like this, I can't help hating my own guts. I've written about this before and got lots of claps but also been shamed for showing white fragility so I usually wind up deleting such posts. I'll probably delete this one also.

Seriously folks -- if anyone has any suggestions for overcoming the self-hate that's a natural reaction to being white and knowing of stuff like this, this would be greatly appreciated. And please don't tell me just stop reading stuff like this. We can't sweep our shameful past and present under the rug. But how to deal with the self-hate? RIght now I'm dealing with it by opposing racism, but it seems there is so little I can do, in view of the fact that racism is white people's problem but most white people seem fine with it.

Racism will end when white folks see how it hurts us also. I see how it hurts me. Racism has separated me from my family and caused me to hate myself. It has destroyed my humanity and my people's humanity. It hurts me, that's why I am struggling to end it. But most while people don't seem to see it this way. Most white people don't seem to see it at all, and say I'm tilting at windmills. Meanwhile I"m wanting to throw a rock at the mirror when it shows me my hideous white face. I would have killed myself a long time ago but that's against my religion.

Anyone else feel this way? How do you deal with it?